And then there are the bad days... out of 6 good possibilities on the job front three are a no go, two are a we have to hold off for right now but we will be in touch and only one is still a good maybe because they haven't chosen yet... It is day's like this that really make me feel useless and insignificant. The homeless person in me makes me feel like it is unfair and purposeful even though I know that is not the case logically.
The trick is to not give up. We have our bad days but also our good ones. I sit at one of the tables at the shelter and look around and see that maybe 10% - 15% of these people have a chance to be better than they are. Not because the others can't but because they dont want to. They hate their lives and they hate themselves but they have no drive to change their situation. They want someone else to do it for them. They want to blame others for their situation. They are career shelter people. It is an easy way out for them. A place to stay, dinner, snacks, bathrooms and no true pressure except for some over the top rules and empty threats. That is not us nor will it ever be. We are out of here after tonight only having to be here 2 1/2 weeks.
Little steps....
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